Starting Over

From the beginning, I believed in God but never knew, or cared to know, the meaning behind His Son, Jesus Christ.
I have always heard from others that you have to be saved in order to be with God in the kingdom of heaven. I took the plunge in September 1988, when I was in the Marine Corps. I can honestly say that was a foxhole prayer.
I recommitted my life to Christ about 1997-98. I was having problems with my first marriage and decided to become sold out for Christ. My problem was I did not know how to study the bible, or even where to begin, and I didn't have a male role model.
My marriage ended in 2001 and later that year I remarried. Things were good at first and then after seven years it ended like the first marriage. I felt jaded by the church I was attending but realized that I wasn't living my life for the Lord. I spent the next year or so disobeying God and living for myself. Then, in September of 2010, I found myself in love again and remarried for the third time in November of that year. The marriage was rocky, like the two previous and did not last over a year and a half. I spent my time in and out of the Word, hot and cold and giving God some of my time when I felt up to it. My 3rd wife and I kept talking after we drifted apart several times. I am currently with her and my life is the best it has ever been.
This story is to say that God was with me through the good times and bad. He has never left my side, although I have felt alone at times but never reached out to Him.
My life has been full of disappointments and victories. I have mistreated friends and have been on the other side to feel the pain myself. I have made plenty of mistakes along the way and still do.
During some tough times, I decided to start a ministry to reach people.
I came up with the name Follow Him Ministry a few years back. This ministry is not to tell people how bad they are and they are going to hell if they don't change their way. This ministry is to show the love of Jesus Christ, make friends, get feedback and most of all, plant the seed.
I am broken. I am not better than anyone else. I am starting over. Each day I get up, I start over and face struggles. I try to wake up early and speak with God before I start each day. I hope this blog can help some people and I want to receive input that will help me. God bless you.