Where's daddy Part 2

In the last 10 years I have understood more the importance of a father or male role model in a child's life. I am still learning new things.  I recently went to an event with my grandson at his school. It was hosted by All-Star dad's and the principle was the speaker.  He started the program by going over statistics of the different things children face without a father or male role model. More likely to commit suicide , go to prison, or do drugs. I have a chance to be a positive influence on someone's life who is in my immediate circle.
I can't go back and undo the past.
Since I started doing the prison ministry, I have noticed no mention of dad or, if mentioned, in a negative way. A while back, a ministry brought Mothers day cards to a local prison. They were all bought. The ministry thought they would have the same success with Father's day cards. Not a single card was bought. Father's leave a lasting impression on their children, good or bad. Sons will grow up like their fathers and daughters will look for a husband that models them. I see this around me and the affects it has. Dad's, spend as much time as you can with your kids. Show them that you love mom so that your sons can grow to be good husbands and your daughters will know what to look for in a husband.

Where is daddy Part 1

I didn't get saved until I was 20. Growing up my dad was never involved in my life. We were in the same room but might as well been miles apart. My mom was my best friend as well as a great mother. She taught me how to be tough. I have her attitude. I smoked pot when I was 12 but soon after, I separated myself from the friend who introduced me to it. I was smart but lazy. I thought I was dumb but had ADHD. I didn't graduate until I was 20. No one checked on me through school, so I never did homework. I did enough in school to get me by and eventually graduate. I didn't have a male role model so I didn't know how to be a man. I joined the Marines in 1984 and got out in `88. I was a mess the whole time I was in. I did manage to understand what work was. When I got out,  I couldn't keep a job. I got bored with them. I married and had 2 boys, Cody and Cory. I wasn't a very good father to them and rarely here from Cory and never from Cody. I didn't know how to treat my wife and eventually we divorced. I remarried and had twin boys but still struggled to be a good dad and husband. My 2nd wife divorced me and I never see my twins. During that time, I started to go to Promise Keepers and talk to preachers. I met Melissa and we have been together almost 8 years. It has been rocky, I won't lie, but I try to treat her like a princess. She is a good woman. Sometimes I feel, at 53 yrs old, I wasted most of my life. I want to serve God. I've messed over a lot of people through the years. I know I can't get that back but if I can help someone in need. I don't know how much life I have left but I have to make the best of it and be a servant to the Lord. I was a correction officer for awhile and when the inmates would ask why I was friendly to them, I said because I'm not any better than you. I could have been easily been in their shoes.